Ughh. I’m bored and sick of feeling this way. Right now I’m at Sheppard AFB with my hubby who is a doc in the Air Force. DD is taking a rather long nap. Hubby is taking a class and I’m stuck most of the day in a little room doing nothing much. I hate missing working. I worked so hard for my B.S. and M.S. degree and worked for about 7 years before quitting. This feeling gets old, but it’s still present always making me feel guilty. My hubby and I have a big decision in the next year as to whether to get out of the military or sign on for more time. If we get out, we could move back home and I could work and use my mother-in-law as the nanny. She’s already agreed and would be excited to help out. It seems like a nice option because she could come over to our house and loves our dd so much. However, my hubby really loves his job in the military and wants to sign on. In fact, he wants to retire in the military. That’s another 14 years of moving around every 4 years. I don’t mind military life (except for TDYs and deployments) and enjoy the great benefits (insurance, pay, job security, traveling). I’m not sure how the working situation would work if we stay in the military. I refuse to use daycare. It scares the crap out of me and I won’t put my dd in it for 40-50hrs a week. I don’t feel any better about nannies. I need to find more support blogs of SAHMs. I suppose I could work part-time, such as teaching at a community college. I might teach a lab or two this fall.
I really love taking care of my dd and spending time with her. I’m mainly staying home for her because she needs her mommy. I don’t want some stranger raising her just so I can feel good about myself or meet my needs.
